Monday, October 31, 2005

drop a heart, break a name
a lost of mood
broken down inside out
i cherish all the times spent
i'll still stay and wait
hoping for a miracle t happen
what i am is what i pretend t be
you won't see the tears i cry
illusions never change into something real
-loving

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 5:14 PM

[EDITED]

didn't really have the mood t update last night and its not as if im feeling any better now with all these shait am facing. its a major affection now.

FRI;

last day in sec school, perfect attendance. clearing up of classrooms, tearing down the notice board decorations. flashbacks of putting up the notice board decorations at the beginning of the year and now it's time we leave the class, never stepping back in there again. graduation day in the hall was worst. tried holding back the tears but when i saw sher's tears rolling down i couldnt control. although 5B isn't a united class but still the bonds formed after 3 years i still love them many. i'm sure gonna miss the 2d'o2 alot. the two teachers whom am gonna miss alot will be miss tan and mdm yani. they'll be rem'd always.

SHERLYN ;

mah bestest of all best friend in sec 2. remembering all the great times we had tgt; hanging out till late on weekdays and weekends, all the stay overs at mah place, the long bitchings over the phone, the conferencings, the food we cooked tgt and the chocolates you drop on mah bed while talking on the phone, that time when you had t rush for next days art exam at mah place, the times where we studied at mah place, when we fagged over at mah place and burnt a hole and many more t list. i really enjoyed all the great times with you. rem after O's our trip overseas, staying over at mah place, tanning every sunday and shopping sprees. no matter what, you won't be forgotten, that i promise you. we'll keep in contact and hopefully we won't drift apart.

rem no matter what, am just a ring/text and walking distance away, will always be there for you.

MELODY ;

another bestie since sec 4. you were the first person who i actually talked t when i stepped into the school, when we came for the posting thing in dec. i sat with you in the hall and borrowed a pen from you, you were so shy. i will rem you mcdonald hair, so cute. although we only gotta know each other more and hang out in sec 4, i still enjoyed the times with you. esp last year when sher and i frequent your house. cooking maggie mee, tuna, buying back food from the hawker centre and i will always rem that frightening day at your place. although i love dissing you for god knows what reason but i still do love you (: do keep in contact BB to the power of 4.

PIKIE ;

the one who often scold me kaobei in sec 1 for god knows what reason. the one who always ask me what i wanna eat for recess and asked if im hungry. hahs. i will not forget you PIKIE and all your lame jokes and of course the the pink cloud joke. pikie must meet up for more food kay but rem t lose weight too.

i hope the 2d'o2 clique will never part or drift

SAT ;

seems like am left alone in some isolated island
lost in confusion, no where t turn
wondering whats going on
i really do wanna know
but you're just not telling me
did someone brainwash you or something
all happened overnight
would you at least tell me whats going on
loving

the night was ruin, yes it was
before leaving for liquid
i alr lost the mood
although today was the night where ting and i
SUPPOSE t have a pre-celebration of our bday
mah mood was spoilt instead
lia is a good dancer

left the club and chilled by the river side
with regi and jamie
zac joined after jamie left as he was alone
talked alittle, tried t cheer me up
he left, we went back up with yig
just dance with regi
and this kinda guy no idea where he popped out from
intro'd himself then danced tgt
like hello, i didnt agree t dance with you
thank god zac saved me, THANKS HELL ALOT
i rather dance with regi mann

cabbed with regi and yig home
heard from regi he didnt wanna accept the money
thanks for the ride (:
hopefully things will change for the better

stabbed time and time again

tell me whats going on

bleeding from inside

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 9:17 AM

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

what aug said was true

what era is it already

and you still can see "ah-beng" wannabes arnd

hear say bout many things

he is actually afraid of other people arnd

what a joke, seem like a clown sial

oh wells, can't be much bothered either

ain't gonna put ourselves into their category

4 more days left in school

quite saddening huh

the whole class was practicing some cheena song for grad day

firstly, its cheena what a turn off

secondly, i barely know how t read the lyrics

yes i admit mah chinese suck damn badly

thirdly, it's too fast

the whole class wasn't really co-operative too

why can't they choose a english song, it'll be hell better

we didn't get t watch the talentime

though most of us longed t go watch it

besides its the last year in sec school

but miss chua didn't allow us to

anyhow, i heard its a screw'd up this year

the participants were quite pathetic this year compared t before

so i guess its not even close t fan-fucken-tastic

not everyone wants t go for prom

tried persuading them t go

some annoying arse talked in sucha rude manner

hey!! i don't have any obligations t do all these alright

totally one of a kind, i swear

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 1:50 PM

Monday, October 24, 2005

a sudden urge t blog
there were just too many distractions just now
currently, one major distraction
it just keep running through mah mind
seems like a thousand unwanted stabbings
time and time it happens all over again
god knows when would these things come t an end
my heart's starting t wonder more
~~sweet things dont last~~
tell me ; sweet things do last.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 4:17 PM

that girl ; ONE OF A KIND

quit acting, be yourself and quit licking people's boots. seducing people with your words or actions, we can all see that. try harder getting into everyones good books.

BE YOURSELF GIRL.

anyhow, i've got one more week left, in a place where i spent 3/4 of mah time in the last 5 years. recalling the first time i stepped into the school, i was the only scgs girl. from a girl school t a mix school, seeing guys revolving arnd was one big change for sure. gradually i made more friends and different cliques each year. many good and bad memories through out the whole 5 years. best year was in sec 2, many love for sec 2d'o2. that year was uber happening, had heap loads of nothing but enjoyment and fun. recalling mah main clique was sher, jess and cheryl. always going t the toilet after every single lesson, sneaking out t the toilet almost every lesson without getting caught, talking back t some teachers we know we could bully, signing in and out book was given due t our naugthy-ness and talking non-stop during lessons. late nights, stay overs be it weekends or weekdays. sec 2 life was totally havoc and was loving it t the max. many of us changed as the years passed ; inner and outter change. i admit i did change quite abit, for the worst and better. hahs. well, am gna spend mah last week well. it's quite a saddening thing t leave. well, i hope we still do meet up as a class and obviously meet mah clique often. alright, enough of that. i shall update alil on the pass few days.

THURS;

had chem prac

it wasn't as bad as i expect

though i didn't get the right answers

met leon for a movie

watched transporter 2 ; 4popcorns/5popcorns

walked arnd town

settle'd down at mccafe

did mah english homework

sel came over t borrow mah hp

that ass grabbed me from behind and gave me a shock

i screamed damn loud

it was ultra damn embarrassing thing

chill 'd

dinner'd at nydc

then coffee bean ; alex and his gf came for while too

finished up mah english homework

walked over t cine with him

met funy cause he was gg ns the next day

talked for awhile then i headed home

was totally exhausted

FRI;

stayed home the whole day

was wondering if i shld go out

wanted t ask sher out for a movie

cause its been quite some time since we watched a movie tgt

but... she was busy with something -laughs

met regi and fel at hiltons haagen dazs

had cookies and cream and macadamia brittle

went over t BK t find ong and leon

while waiting for them t buy their ice cream

saw shaun's gf followed by shaun then xing

shaun turn'd back and waved

for god knows what reason

xing text'd saying hi, weird.

anyhow, we headed t potblack

the guys play billard/snooker, no idea which

fel, regi and i were having our girl talk

left and headed t al-ameem for prata in ongs car

he was being "ah-beng" songs darn funny luh

went over t regi's place for some bitching ((;

fel went home from the al-ameem

dad fetch'd me back arnd 3+

4 guys in their late 40s gave regi and i a big shock

they were standing right infront of the lift door

and when it open'd we both gotta shock

oh, did i mention

i love fel's hair and digi cam (:

SAT;

was suppose t go night safari

but ong said it was cat 1 or sthg like that

meaning ; it'll rain

so we didn't go in the end

mah parents wenta orchard towers

i took a lift from them

i was still early, regi was late

walked over t lido t meet ting and her sis at mccafe

chill'd there, regi came

chill'd for like 2-3 hours

then leon, vince and ong came over

ting was gg t mdm wong, asked if we wanted t go

but we were not dress'd int he proper attire t club

besides we went t watch movie with the rest too

melvin came, okay now his name is JOSHUA

jamie was suppose t come but she didn't

we didn't meet up this week

oh wells

walked t ongs car and head'd t plaza sing

they made leon and i go up and buy tix

there wasn't any good timing

so we went t cine t get the tix

the show was at 11.4opm

so regi and i wenta eat

then met the guys back at heeren

hmv'd then went back t cine

funy text'd me

he's gna book out n mah birthday (:

the bloody theater was ultra damn cold

the air con was like blowing straight down at us

was freezing in the theater

THE WIG ; 2.5popcorns/5popcorns

it was rather scary but dumb storyline

came out from the cinema it was raining heavily

ong and vince had t run in the rain t get the car

leon, regi and i ran over t meritus mandarin

was drenched but wasnt as bad as ong and vince for sure

headed t balastier for bak gu teh

the guys ate, we didn't

wasn't hungry

went over t somewhere near regi's place and bitch'd alot

was waiting for dad t fetch me home

but he was still out

so i cabbed home mahself

it was still raining, how irritating

lastly, its 9 nine more days t mah birthday

and yes, am counting down

have a problem with that, your pasar -grins

ting and regi was asking me what i wanted

wonder how am i gonna celebrate mah birthday this year

besides it's so near O's and i'm hating that

surprise surprise, i love (((x

SHALL STOP MAH OH SO LONG POST HERE

enjoyed mah the past few days

with your existence

filled with fun and happy moments

wishing t stay close t you ever

hugs, kisses, your touch ; i love.

sweetest darling ((:

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 11:02 AM

Monday, October 17, 2005

it has been raining for the whole day
ended up not gg t school but nicely tugged in bed
am feeling rather cold now
oh wells
had dinner with sher, aug, sel, horny and john
ate at the new red hill market, first time
had shait loads, fats added t mah bod
mum was there with mah sister and her other half
never eat with aug and john, the two hungry ghost

HERE ARE SOME PICS I TOOK THESE FEW DAYS
[the rest are upload'd in img station alr ((; ]

HARDWORKING HUH

STARBUCKS

HIS ATTEMPT OF TAKING PICS WITH MAH CAM

A CANDID SHOT HE TOOK

RETARDED COLOUR

BORED AT POT BLACK

WONDER WHATS WITH THE FACES

LICK MAH NECK, KIDDING LUH

DARLIE ADVERT..RIGHT....

WE WERE ULTRA DAMN BORED

ACTING CUTE I SUPPOSE

THE DOWNWARDS TAKE

FIND YIG!

BEFORE THE MASSIVE DANCING

LOVE DANCING WITH HER, SEXY LIL THANG

AFTERMATH OF CLUBBING ;MASSIVE DANCING

I JUST CAN'T GET ENOUGH OF HER

SHE'S WILLING T BE MAH POLE WHEN I DANCE

(((:

SHAKE THAT ARSE PL

WHILE WAITING FOR TINGS SIS BF

SWEATY (:

DANCE MATE (;

PINS, PINS AND MORE PINS

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 2:24 AM

Saturday, October 15, 2005

have been pretty lazy t blog the past few days

down with a flu, coughing still and that irritates me most

mah cough always take eons t get well

hopefully this time it will ((:

/UPDATES

THURSDAY;

you made mah day (((;

coffee bean and starbucks

study and snap shots

oh, am still loving mocha frap with whip cream

love it many many ((x

FRIDAY;

didn't go t school

met up at farrer rd then cabb'd t town

lido ; dinner'd and caught a movie

jamie, leon, yig and bunny

the skeleton key ; 3.5 outta 5 popcorns

kinda scary but a dumb ending, i admit

i jump'd quite a no. of times

thank god i didn't scream

mccafe; vincent came

walk'd t potblack

watch'd them play billard

then play'd alil pool ; battle of the sexes (;

cabb'd home

dad was being a arse i swear.

i love that hug, i love your hugs

can't get enough of them.

SATURDAY;

stay'd home

had steamboat with mah family

pikie want'd t come over -laughs

got ready and mum send me t town

met up with mah girls ; ting, regi, jamie

saw cyn and cassie ; i'll awaiting supper

went liquid, the Q was fcuken long mann

BUT it was worth Q-ing

had helluva fun, dancing with ting was great

left the club early cause regi had t go back early today

ting's sis bf fetched us home

tellmeitisntfading

ivegotthisfeelinginmethattellsmeitis

youresounpredictable

tellmewhatswrong

ihatethisfeelinginme

youvebeenrooted, alwayswillbe

guessimnotrootedthere,thoughiwishiwas

itsalltoosweetolast

imbreakingdownslowly

pleasetellmewhatifeelaintthatwaythingsare

doyouevenbother,iwonder

lovelovelovelovelove.....

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 7:30 PM

Thursday, October 13, 2005

SIXTY-ONE LOVELOVE AND STILL COUNTING (((x

was late for school again, all thanks t sherlyn's darling. am down with a flu. order macs for lunch today, miss tan help'd us t order ;thanks ((; she wanted t give us a treat but it wouldn't be nice. besides we already collected the money. been adding so much fats t mah bod these few days which is real bad. oh yes, today mr wong kuan loong threw the bloodeh softball straight t mah head. obviously it hurt but it wasnt that bad, so yeah. mel did ballet dancing in the school field, believe it not? -laughs. had maths mock today, we ended up dicussing, peiwen wrote the answers on the board and in the end we could hand it in on friday. so much for staying back on a HOT wednesday afternoon. yes i mean HOT and humid. rahhh. sher's dad fetch'd us home cause we saw him on the road while we were crossing the road (((;

woke up seeing the text, made mah morning. the horoscope reading were uber bad t the max. hopefully it ain't happening t me. the picture was constantly viewed through out the whole day. was waiting thinking that you were still dreaming. oh wells, you were not. sitting infront of the com, renovating mah blog. it vibrated, was delighted. its dangerous, don't fall ; sweet things never last long though i hope it would.

If you were mine, I be your your everything and you be the only thing that I would ever need. If you were mine,I would tell everyone that you are the only one that I could ever want.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 3:17 PM

Sunday, October 09, 2005

its sunday and i've gotta go t school
damn it, thanks t the big O
i didn't have a good night sleep at all
was on the phone till late last night
those thoughts just stay'd in mah mind
was uber tired but i just couldn't fall asleep
am up earlier today compared t the rest of the sundays
want'd t head t school later so i could have more sleep
oh wells, i'll just go at 2pm.

yesterday was just so not mah day
shit happens mostly on me, rahh
suppose t meet regi at 4
as usual, was quite lazy so laze till 6
head'd down t taka t meet mah girls
went paragon walk'd alil
regi and i went over t cine t find yig
ate alil then jamie, vincent and bunny came
there wasn't any space at kpool
chill'd all the way instead
saw joel, he was heading down t liquid too
we all head'd down t liquid tgt
wasn't feeling too good
but who cares, still dance
okay, forget bout the rest of the night
it was totally screw'd up, yes i mean totally
came home and dad was being a pain in the arse
worst night ever

not wanting you t worry
or not wanting t spoil your night ;
was a wrong choice, no idea why
you must be thinking we're faking it
no cold shoulder was given
there just wasn't chance t talk
things i saw was oh so turn off
i didn't wanna even think about it
it was a no big deal kinda thing, i had no say
prolly it was a wrong choice gg
catching a movie sounds much better
" that's what you really want, dont bother you alr "
even if you don't wanna bother alr,
i can't do anything but t hope you bother
you do mean sthg t me
prolly that'll be the last text sent.
time and time again, things screw up

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 3:57 PM

Saturday, October 08, 2005

woohoo i feel fresher after my shower
went for dinner with mah family
aunts and all, i love them all -laughs
dad send me t the main road
they all went for ice cream

waited for the cab for damn long
arnd thirty cabs passed by and they didnt stop
like wtf right
decided t call for a cab
finally one kind cab driver stopped for me

met leon at cine
he bought the tix alr
cheers then starbucks then movie
GOAL ; it was awesome ((((x
cabb'd home
i enjoyed tonight, totally i swear
many thanks t leon

&williberooted,not?

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 6:08 PM

comfy seats, big screen and air condition'd sound proof
obviously, with the company of my friends
i so miss that place
although i just caught a movie last week
oh wells.
i wanna catch a movie this weekend too
no plans made for today yet
prolly i'll stay at home, i'm pretty tired too

slept real late last night
or should i say, this morning
hahs. was on the phone and tv-ing
am loving it that way

watch'd;
the laguna beach
tail daters
wanna come in
pimp my ride
the channel 8 9pm show
was stuck t the tv for quite awhile

was home alone with my maid
mah family went for dinner
i was too tired so i stay'd home
had heap loads of homework t finish;
ss, geog, chem and english

today ; in class
i tried hard t stay awake
but i fell asleep during chinese
it was god damn boring

terence came back t school
look'd as if he grew taller,
maybe he did. hurhur
cabb'd home with sher

FLICKS T CATCH ;
- GOAL
- INTO THE BLUE
- THE DUKES OF HAZZARD
- THE 40 YEAR-OLD VIRGIN [M18]
- DEUCE BIGALOW
- THE SKELETON KEY
- FLIGHT PLAN
- THE EXORCISM OF EMILY ROSE

alright, am frigging tired
i need mah sleep
i wanna catch a movie, rahhh

&kingofmahprickedheart

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 8:31 AM

Thursday, October 06, 2005

rain'd early in the morning
was freezing in sher dad's car
was ultra cold
aug woke up late so he didn't hitch a ride

something shocked almost everyone today
miss tan wanted t collect our EL homework
it's not that we didn't do or we copied
it's cause of something else, i shall not say
i confess'd t her during recess that i copied
surprisingly, am so honest huh?
cause if i know i don't confess t her;
i'll get screw'd badly

went home and changed
dad sent me and sher down t holland
met leon there
studied at deli then starbucks
ate dinner then chill'd at coffee bean
ong and another guy came too
cabb'd home
enjoy'd the day, i love the snapshots (:

damn, victor just send me his pic of his eye
damn it, its darn stylo milo yet scary
if i was eating, i'll prolly puked everything out

life is so contridicting
i hate it when it comes t this point
where i keep thinking
everything just starts running through mah mind
thousand unwanted fucks pricking mah heart
mismatched actions and theory
the things heard, led the mind wonder
the fear in the heart shaped place increased tremendously
tell me whats the real you?
was what he said bout you the truth,
cause i didn't choose t believe it at the beginning.
now, come t think about it ; i'm not sure
will i be rooted there, should you be rooted there?
somehow, the roots are gripping in mine alr
am in dilemma.

&thoseunwantedfucks

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 3:29 PM

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

this korean show on channel U is so saddening can
tears will just roll down for those who watched it
mac accompanied me through the show
well, fats added of course

stayed back after school today
was studying in the lib with the some others
left arnd 5.3opm
SOMETHING DUMB HAPPEN, REAL DUMB
I SHALL NOT SAY THE DETAILS
SHER, AUG AND I FELT LIKE SPASTARDS

oh, victor was whacked by some gangster
his blood vessel in his eye burst
OMG, it looked frigging scary i swear
seriously, he is damn poor thing
hope he gets well real soon

i actually wenta buy guidebooks
unbelievable huh?
bought more sationary t spice up mah pencil box

am tired and i think i should sleep early today
have been sleeping late almost every night
i'm loving mah late night talks (((;

&iwannastartthedayandendthedaywithyou

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 2:34 PM

Monday, October 03, 2005

dinner and desert
fattening earthquake
was a night filled with laughter, i love

&sugarcoatedtheory

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 2:54 PM

i just realize that friendster's amazing
you can see who has viewed your profile
now i know who has viewed mine (((;
oh wells, rip, strip and burn the childish-ness
enough said -

slept real early this morning
was chatting both online and on the phone
i thought i slept on the phone while talking
was awoken by a miss call early in the afternoon
anyhow, i guess am not really a deep sleeper anymore
i could actually hear mah phone buzz (((;

i choose t hear instead of trusting
it's hard t believe things ;
the outter coating is just too attractive
i've yet to find out whats beneath
there's a fear in me

BABY BOY YOU STAY ON MY MIND
FULFILL MY FANTASIES
I THINK ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME
I SEE YOU IN MY DREAMS
BABY BOY NOT A DAY GOES BY
WITHOUT MY FANTASIES
I THINK ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME
I SEE YOU IN MY DREAMS
AAH OH MY BABY'S FLY BABY OH
YES NO HURT ME SO GOOD BABY OH
I'M SO WRAPPED UP IN YOUR LOVE LET ME GO
LET ME BREATHE STAY OUT MY FANTASIES

&sugarcoat'dtheory

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 8:28 AM

Sunday, October 02, 2005

HAPPY CHILDRENS' DAY

i'm finally done with mah belt (((;
suffer'd for two frigging days
smelling all the chemicals
it sure made me so much dumber

went for alil shopping with pl ytd
candice needs t lose weight, she's way too fat
walk'd t forum's coffee bean t meet yig and leon
it was a ultra damn long walk i swear
thank god i was wearing mah chuck taylors!
if not mah legs would prolly give way on the way
all sorts of different and weird people ;along the streets

head'd t lido t check out the timings, no good ones
walk'd t cine, yes walk'd again
mah neck was aching
bought tix for dark water, pl didn't watch
sent pl off and went t play snooker
obviously not me, yig and leon

dark water wasn't scary
i only got scared twice
thanks t leon, he scared me once
was having a killer headache during the movie
head'd down t cheers t get panadol extra
then cabb'd home
mann i almost puked in the cab
came home and it all came out
shower'd and slept
i wished i could just die at that moment
still, i enjoyed the night

manage t wake up this morning
miricle huh (((;
headache was GONE
went school for science prac then
breakfast with sher
talk'd about after Os and lots of other stuff
the sun is strong, great day for tanning (:

&sugarcoatedmouth

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 3:35 AM