Wednesday, November 30, 2005
went tanning today instead of gym
cause miss aw couldn't find her shoes
mel tanned in her bra
how daring, WHEEET
shait that fella with that red toyota
something did happen
mel came over t my place for lunch
and she tried the skirt
she left and sher came over for lunch
grandma fetched us t holland
mum fetched us t suntec
we got lost in marina
stupid place
I ATE CARLS JR! ((((x
walked round suntec and marina
coundn't find anything
headed t wisma
got my stuff
then headed down t holland
met up with ting, hui, sel, josh, kelvin, th, jamie and oboivusly the birthday girl
it was raining heavily we had t run in the rain can
sheesh, it was quite a scene
haagen daz then mum fetched sel and i back home
prom's tmr.
& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ;
3:13 AM
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
firstly i'm going t wish my dearest pl
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY
legal age t club almost everywhere
able t learn driving and soon drive me arnd ((:
and a year older
nearing the BIG TWO's soon
been tossing and turning in bed for the past 50 mins
and so i got up and decided t blog
i've been quite busy bumming arnd, sleeping and EATING
i feel so sinful having suppers almost everynight
then again, i can't resist the temptation
went for beef noodles on sunday
then bought afew items from cold storage
enjoying your company (:
guess soon i shall head down t far east square
their beef noodles there are fanfcukentastic
as what my sister claims
suppose t head t the gym with sher ytd
but she texted me early at 9.15 t tell me she's tired
gave morning call
looked out of the window thinking that it was SUNNY
next moment, it was pouring
oh well, i went back t sleep
and frequently disturbed by the calls
was suppose t meet sher at 4
instead i sprung out of bed at 3.50
WOOOPS
went t the tailor t get my dress done
then fetched sher and headed down town
mel joined us
did alil shopping today
thanks mommy (((;
i was uber lazy today
wore tee and skirt with light make up
out i went (:
left town t holland with mum and sher
had crystal jade then aunt came
GAWD. some happening thing happened today
left us gossiping and laughing non-stop
caught my aunt's husband with some other woman
BUT we pretended we didn't know
mann, his reaction was damn funny when he saw aunt
TO HELL WITH HIM
seriously, wtf is wrong with him
having an affair? wake up arse
shall see, KARMA DOES HAPPENS
headed t aunt's place then home
it's gonna be another busy day tmr
gym/tanning at 10
mel's coming over t my place at 12
to borrow the skirts
gonna meet sher at 1 t holland then suntec
then t town t get my stuff
then back t holland again for regi's birthday
EYE BAGS
gonna sleep after quikz sends me the pic
so deep but meaingless
plenty loves
& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ;
9:22 AM
Monday, November 28, 2005
yesterday was hot
4 noobes joined us
sher, mel, jess and her couz
hahs, i was once a noobe too
it was uber packed last night
there was hardly any space t dance
sly and olinda were there
some humans were like crazy over them
thank god they left
means there were more space for us
so humans are really irritating, i swear
lia even scolded one fucking bitch
good one lia, wheeet (((;
ruhui came down from mdm wong
she was high alr so they brought her out
then t the hotel
danced all night
though it wasn't a smooth night but an enjoyable one
oh man, mission failed
couldn't get mel and sel t dance )));
josh is a good dancer, fun t dance with
his old school dance, oh man
didn't getta dance with the girls alot this time though
nevermind, more t come aye
came home and saw my skin tore
sher stepped on my toe and it hurt
i got burnt by lia's ciggy
stepped by arron
rahhh.
suppose t go shopping with mum later on
but i'm too tired
three days and i miss you
mean nothing t you
& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ;
9:53 AM
Saturday, November 26, 2005
how boring can today get
am home so early on a friday is totally not me
but might be gg out for supper ltr
finally, i got my prom dress
next; shawl, heels, accessories and evening bag
planning t wear 3 inches heels
hope i don't break them instead
am rotting rotting rotting at home
ROTTING BORING TIRED STILL ROTTING
ate alot for dinner at hans, yes alot
am gna head t the gym soon
am happy, my leg is quite well alr
didn't getta catch a movie today
spend my time finding my dress
perfect in black wasn't that fab after all
instead the shop looked scary
saw sidney working in some shop there
AM ULTRA DAMN BORED, SOMEONE SAVE ME
my ladies, tmr (;
& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ;
2:58 PM
Friday, November 25, 2005
one ultra damn hilarious thing happened just now
after dinner we were all chilling by the railings at cine;
josh, sher, ting, hui and i
then we heard a scream
i saw ruhui fell back
and she landed on the big patch of grass
i was not in time t catch her
we were all laughing our arse off
joke of the day (((:
alright, sat's confirm
am loving the girls plenty
& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ;
3:45 PM
i got my hair dyed ytd
came home, shower
hit the sack
i had t go t school at 9 ytd
which i planned not t go
BUT sher called me
and i had no choice but t go
how dumb, just t collect the prom tix
gonna go hunting for prom later on
seriously, am lazy t go out
ting's dying her hair now
won't be gg for chinablack's party ltr
it's non-alcoholic
i'll get darlings high this weekend (;
the fact is, i miss you
it isn't just words
i've got so much t tell you
but i can't
i feel you pushing me away
maybe i shall just move aside
pleading love with every beat of my heart
when will this stop
you're out of my reach
& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ;
9:09 AM
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
it's been raining all day
makes me just wanna stay in bed
comfortably tugged under the comforter
it's the last day of o levels
doesn't make any difference
not partying, how boring can that be
wisma's foodrepublic is incomparable
hunted for prom outfit
daniel yam's totally not suitable
the designs weren't that fantastic either
saw 2 and one of them is helena's colour
how lovely (x
town was a bore, i swear
there was totally nothing t do
and my legs are still extremly aching
so they came over t my place t drink
sher was the first one down then sel puked
the night's so boring
intoxicant rush
emo-
i'll stay right here
watch you from here
that's all i can do
that's how far apart we are
i do miss you, always did
withstand whatever that came my way
am on the verge of breaking down
but i chose this and i'll try hard t stay strong
it's a one way ticket, no turning back
even if i fall off the edge, i'll still love you
dream is all i do, illusions are all that i have
my mind's filled with 'if onlys'
waiting for something that won't happen
yet still right here waiting
because of you
mismatched
& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ;
8:34 PM
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
my legs are aching large scale
to be exact, thighs
it's painful t the bone
i need support t stand or sit
i can't walk normally
that's how painful it is
oh wells, its the last paper tmr
then we'll be able t party officially
i have yet t find my outfit for prom
then again, i don't feel like gg for prom
am not even excited for it
gill ask me t crash sc's prom with her
then chinablack after that
doubt i'll be crashing but maybe chinablack
cause i'll be dying my hair on tht day
thinking of dying jet black then purple
quikz said its punkish
am not sure, prolly jet black with pink/red/brown
I DONT KNOW
i'll ask for suggestions and comments
can't wait for 19 hours later
the last paper will be over
entry proof will be torn and all over the floor
officially out of queenstown
how sad yet am looking forward t it (:
obviously everyone will be missed
i hate receiving private number calls
esp when i get a miss call i don't even know who called
that was what happen this morning
at least be nice enough t leave me a text or sthg
so i need not crack my head and think
hahs but nevermind
oh man, am so in love with the song
have been listening t it since this afternoon
it's been replaying and am still loving it
current fave song ; rate - 100 music notes!
feeling alil hyper
rahh its the last paper tmr
and i've got no plans
how sad, cry with me
you've been missed today, again
& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ;
12:41 PM
Monday, November 21, 2005
you asked me
why did i give you the hearts
why was it ninety-nine
why were there two special ones
how can i possibly tell you the real reason
though i hope you knew
you do mean more than a just a friend
yet i've gotta treat you only as a friend
contridicting it may be
the presents weren't too much
oh wells, hope you like the presents
deep and meaningless
painful it may seem
FRIDAY;
sher left my place cause it was gonna rain
got ready and mum fetched me down town
everywhere was jam, how irritating
adding on i was late
met regi and went hunting at wisma then paragon
headed down t heeren from paragon t meet fel
on the way, i saw this lady coming out from paragon
she was wearing a corset and tight fitting black pants
wooo hot bod
looked real hot so i told regi
the next thing, 'she' talked
we were both shocked
'she' was a trans, crap
jade, ebel and maxine came over t heeren
jade bought this seductive heels from guess
went over t cine
chilled at rockys
regi, ebel, maxine, jade, ian, kanan, vic and quikz
then we saw another trans
with hot bod but 'her' face disgusted everyone
she was like modeling/posing infront of cine
sticking her arse out and all, turn off
guess she was tryna seduce guys
she even went t the extend of purposely bumming into guys
damn, that made things worst
jade and ian were the most digusted
actually everyone was
it's fine if she had a hot bod with pretty face and all
no offence but its true
what a day.
SATURDAY;
FIRSTLY I HAD NOT ENOUGH SLEEP
i was suppose t reach town at 2
so i woke up at 12.30
it was of no use waking up so early
i still reach town bout 3+
met ting and hui at wisma's food court
took my lunch at the dim sum corner
lia and kartini came over
wooh, i love kartini's hair; natural waves
sexy (((;
left t paragon then taka then back t paragon
chilled at coffee bean and did up the present
left t heeren then cine t pass him his present
had dinner at ljs, its been a while
melvin came
there was a gig at youth park
john, prahlad and aug were there
we left t taka t wait for regi and xing t come
cabbed down t liquid
alcohol rush
the girls all took shots
OBVIOUSLY, ruhui took the most
till she almost roll down the stairs
lia and hui both were high
regi did look abit high too
the sisters and lia left
xing and i then left regi and melvin
was totally exhausted
SUNDAY;
again i didn't have enough sleep
ruhui woke me up
then yig called
met up with yig for coffee at holland
went essential brew
met up with ting, hui and hg
had dinner then we headed t tangos
shots and jugs
again alcohol rush
melvin and lia came over too
all headed home arnd 1o
hg was nice t acc me wait for bus
thanks (:
& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ;
6:43 PM
Friday, November 18, 2005
Dreaming a reality.
Where turth and fiction don't exist.
Confusion is home here.
Believe in you is what you insist.
Nights don't belong.
The nights don't belong.
And the nights, they just don't be long.
I'll be never be the same.
As long as I'm dreaming my reality.
Life, is floating fast away.
But I look, your head is turned away.
From the moment you left I knew that something wasn't right.
But the feeling inside has kept me up all night.
You and me are like one heart-beat.
So slice open my veins.
And let, the romance bleed away.
Back into I thought I knew, these words inside me, tell me what to do.
My heart held, in the palm of your hand.
Now I know, the way to go, this place inside my demented mind.
You saw me bleeding on the bathroom floor.
This time in silence, this time I win.
the car ride
driver ; XING ((:
east coast to mount faber
he fetched sher, mel and i from my place
headed t east coast then mount faber
ice creams and pictures
am feeling so shaitty
not because of the car ride, obviously
i enjoyed the night and the car ride, i swear
i loved it infact (((;
THANKS PLENTY PLENTY
it's cause of something else
prolly i should follow my gut feeling
think again, should i?
i don't wanna end up like him know
cause the feeling he has now
SUCKS T THE BONE, yes i know
then again, her karma on me?
tell me not
sherlyn's staying over
we ordered mac's breakfast
cause dad's hungry
and our mouths are itchy too
hope it arrives soon
-left me pondering
& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ;
7:54 PM
Thursday, November 17, 2005
FIRSTLY, I SCREWED UP POA PAPER 2
SO DAMN SCREWED
oh wells, the headaches are still on
couldn't sleep last night
and i had t wake up early today
my fingers hurt from these hearts
RAHH.
okay, this is so random
BUT whatever
i'll upload recent pics into imagestation soon
WHERE IS HE.
missed
& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ;
3:59 PM
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
i'm staring out at the sky
praying that he will walk in my life
where is he?
where is he?
where is he?
where is this beautiful guy?
who is gonna take me so high?
am longing for you
still do feel for you
i miss you
lying on the bed
i flip open my cell
saw the picture we took
hoping you were right beside me
you're still the one i love
rooted firmly
have i really gotta let go and move on
emoemoemoemoEMOemoemoemoemo
& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ;
5:52 PM
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
woke up at 8 this morning
sher was late again
SHERLYN I SO WANNA KICK YOUR ASS
had geog in the lib
headed t dawnson t have lunch ;
mel, sel and jocelyn
then all went seperate ways
i went over t mel's grannys place
then left after awhile
wenta the doc then headed home
was talking t him online
gosh, it's been a long time since we last talk
as in actually had sucha long conversation
good talk indeed
nothings t be revealed-
but, we've got so many t agree on that someone
KARMA
& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ;
3:49 PM
Monday, November 14, 2005
my head is a barricade
filled with peaceful thoughts
with evil outcome
no one understands
try to break the barrier
i see no outlet
no ones there to catch me when I fall
my eyes burn from these tears
you'd think I'd learn over these years
good things won't last forever
so take take everything and leave me scrambling
reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place
i try to breathe
memories overtaking me
i try to face them but
the thought is too much to conceive
the weekend was a bore
except for a few moments;
when YOU were caught in sight
more shopping and movies t come
more clubbing and suppers t come
bunking over and late nights are for sure
not forgetting gym and tanning sessions
so much yet t come after 3 more days of O's
i've been having headache since last sat
it's like a on and off daily kinda thing
panadol pops
your hugs
your touch
your voice
your texts
you
misslove
longing and craving
92-
& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ;
7:06 PM
Thursday, November 10, 2005
i can associate you t the heart shape figure
for i know you are submerged solidly in there
you are what i crave and long for
i'll sleep with lights on tonight
so when i wake up
your picture will be clearly in sight
& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ;
6:32 PM
then again, she thinks she's a genius
think twice girl,
why aren't you from special stream then
why aren't you in a top jc now or even in a jc
i know i'm not smart, i admit it
think again,
you think you can handle things so well
you think people around you can't see the real you
think carefully, watch what you say
stop faking as if you're some innocent baby,
i so agree with him bout his perception bout you
please stop trying t be someone you are not
it's burning your torn image apart
enough said boutcha for now.
think there is sthg wrong with mah stomach
it constantly gives me pain since sat
and mah headaches are on and off daily
i've got enough of books and words!
although i said i'll only be updating when O's are over
but there isn't any paper tmr
so i'll update now cause i can't sleep too
i've been missing you
thinking of you every now and then
guess you're not cause you seem so fine
you still stand in mah heart no matter what
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EX BF!
31 oct & 1 nov ;
sher was over at mah place
then she left for tuition
met regi at queenstown mrt bout 7
mum sent us t tings place
ruhui ordered pizza and all
a chocolatey birthday cake for ting and i
from sel and jess -THANKS
headed down town
went t indochine for a drink with ;
ting, jamie, regi, ruhui, jaslin,
hong ghim, prahlad, aug, john, joshua and sel
ruting's treat
emo-ed then broke down
wanted t go down t newsroom t club
but they said it was anti-halloween
zouk was super duper pack
so clubbed at indochine instead
counted down t mah bdae
hugs from the them (:
but the hug i longed for didn't come
saw leon&all, lynette, vic and others
the club wasn't really pack
expected it t be damn pack
danced till 3
cabbed home with joshua and sel
was feeling really down
but they all wanted t go back
went home and chat on the phone
headed t mah friends place at 4.30am
drank and got high
i couldn't walk straight
so cabbed home arnd 7am
puked once i got home
something that you won't want t do in the morning
had t take mah contacts and make-up
showered then KO.
the texts were interrupting mah sleep
woke up arnd 4
got ready and headed t town at 7
met up with ting, ruhui, jaslin&bf and hong ghim
then met up with leon and yig
they passed me mah presents ((:
then regi came followed by sel then jamie
went mac t eat then lia came
took lotsa pics at taka then paragon
joshua came, ruhui and ting left
went cine met up with funy
he gave me mah present (:
met max, baker, jon, derek, nick and the rest
basically the ex-bf nuts
jamie left
chilled awhile with regi, benji and sel
then cabbed t mah friends place
chivas this time and didn't get high (:
this is the worst birthday ever
wanted t spend it with you
wanted you as my birthday present
that would be the best present ever
BUT it was just wishes that didn't come through
am still wishing for you thou
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY T TING AND I!
3 NOV ;
met barney at gwc
he was going through and teaching me maths
mum fetched me home
got ready and headed for grandmom's bdae dinner
the dinner was WOOHOO, great
love the salmon and chocolate fondue
granddad was being sucha cartoon he made all of us laugh
after dinner mum send me t sel's place
then over t my friends place for more chivas
4 NOV ;
stayed home all day till night
bought jamies bdae cake
then headed t regis place
chilled there till 11+
regi, nick, eugene and i went t kap
planned with tzehow t surprise jamie at 12mn
it turned out real well
ate the cake then headed t regis place
more snapshots till 2+
then cabbed home
5 NOV ;
met regi at far east, walked arnd
headed t orchard mrt t met ting
we all headed down t yew tee, jamies place
was real cold in the train
no idea whats wrong with me
but i woke up feeling sick and all
she had alil party at her place
only like 3 friends of hers were there
the rest were relatives
left arnd 11pm
ting cabbed home
regi, jamie&bf and i cabbed t gallery hotel
want'd t just chill at soundbar
changed of plans cause of some reasons
clubbed at liquid instead
the music really sucked
adding on i wasn't feeling well
left the club arnd 1 chill by the river till 2
met my friends t chill and chivas again
left arnd 3
due t mum's scolding of my late nights
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY JAMIE!
& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ;
12:09 PM
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
in total bewildment
lost and am finding the exit sign
i can't read whats on your mind
i can't possibly read your heart either
but, i would like to
stab, retrieve, again decline
help me drive the dagger deeper
trace with me explicit line
take this blade, a test of faith
and strike me deep and true
i sit here clutching useless lists
and keys for doors that don't exist
i crack my teeth on pearls
i tear into the history
show me what it means to me in this world
cause I am due for a miracle
i'm waiting for a sign
i'll stare straight into the sun
and I won't close my eyes
till I understand or go blind
the sirens feed my nightmares
i know that there's a point I've missed
a shrine or stone I haven't kissed
a scar that never graced my wrist
a mirror that hasn't met my fist
but I can't help feeling like I'm
emo emo emo emo emo emo emo!
I'll wait til the clock strikes a nerve
to spend some time with you
you've made a lasting impression
and if it doesn't feel right
then I just can't go wrong
i've been sleeping with the lights on
so if I wake in the night
your picture is clearly in sight
what can i say
that can explain
all those times
i'm loving life
theres not a day
that i would say
i hated life
but now am living with your absence
am hating life
it's tearing me apart slowly
this emptiness i feel without you here by me
on the other hand,
you seem so fine
what i potray is what i pretend t be
these broken smiles are hidden
everything seems so fine on the surface
confessions of a broken heart
you won't see the tears i cry
you're my anti-dote,
take this pain away.
*i'll update past events after my O's
all the best t those who are taking O's, lotsa luck.
& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ;
11:00 AM
Friday, November 04, 2005
i'll try t blog tonight about what has happen from halloween till today!
it takes two hands t clap in a r/s, agree with that.
one way ticket
& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ;
5:57 AM
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
HAPPY 17 BIRTHDAY RUTING ; PUSSY HEAD
i woke up with a shaity feeling
affections and distractions
the wrong time to drop the worst line
still loving
tie a red bow
appear when the clock strikes 12am
you'll be the bestest present ever received
fuck-get-it
am filled with imaginations and wishes
which will never happen or come true
stabbed, time and time again
even the sweetest dream will never do
you're mah birthday wish for the year
& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ;
7:37 AM
