Monday, February 27, 2006

not even a shit was given so forget bout two
in any case, no shaits were given
never ever.

BANG BANG, YOU SHOT ME RIGHT DOWN

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 1:20 AM


Sunday, February 26, 2006

mom was suppose head down town with me t get my top followed by dinner but she said she's tired so next week when i told her yesterday that i wanted t get it today. besides i told tisa i'll be going down today t get it today. it's sunday and no, it isn't family day cause it was never or maybe when i was young but not as if i really bother. i want t go but i've got no where t go, so sad huh. i shall find someone t accompany me out, whoever, whoever! then again, i'm kinda lazy t get ready. contridicting yes? i feel like going borders, candice should start the habit of reading. i thought i'm quite lifeless but my sister is worst, she's behaving like some sick woman. well, she actually is but not till that extend. i bet she's just faking it. omg, i had a dream last night and it was so dramatic i tell you. i wanna go out, who wants t go out!

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 5:39 PM


Saturday, February 25, 2006

pretty stressed up
was on the verge of breaking down
i almost did what i wasn't suppose t do
my heart was gonna burst any moment
and i hate t feel that way
plain torture
can't afford any heartache or heartbreak
i love it when your hands are around me
your hugs and smooches,
they never fail t make me smile
ultimate TLC from you,
i'll be on cloud nine.

baby will you make me smile and be on cloud nine always please.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 4:56 AM


Thursday, February 23, 2006

i've really got to get my ass down t mdis by next wed the lastest. thank god i know someone that's gonna study in mdis too. i'm peeling and i look like some girl with skin disease walking along the streets when actually i'm perfectly fine, just suffering from major sunburn that's all. i think i should put mask on my face when the peeling stage is over. how irritating, i couldn't run the game i dl-ed just now so i asked weilong for help and he said I CAN'T PLAY IT due to whatever shait reason, screw that game. i'm craving for macdonalds now and i feel like calling mcdelivery cause i'm sure mom won't be sucha kind soul t drive down t teagarden t buy for me, not that it's very far.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 11:47 PM


Tuesday, February 21, 2006

sigh, seems like i'm the only one with the hand out. two hands are needed t clap, where's his? he asked " what are you doing " me, "blogging" him, " so you're that bored la " well, there isn't a need t be bored t blog. actually it's when i'm unhappy t blog. i'm starting t feel like how i use to.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 4:49 PM

wow, amazingly my brain got burnt

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 3:33 AM


Monday, February 20, 2006

i kind of concluded
not even a shaits was given
so forget about two shaits
no affections
he doesn't bother
prolly they were right.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 6:24 PM


Sunday, February 19, 2006

its 07.03am and i can't get to bed. hung up the phone then text-ed and i still couldn't go t bed. got out of bed and watch television but there was totally nothing that interest me SO i watched past recorded shows. wanted t watch 'ah-wang' but skipped it cause i kept watching it. soon my sister's boyfriend woke up to book in camp and i was nicely lying on the sofa (which was quite unsightly) okay, shuddap. my mind's fills cramped up! my heart seems t be burning by acid. i'll take a walk down and go for breakfast. i'm tired, i really am. i had not enough of sleep yesterday but i just can't fall asleep. not forgetting i've gotta meet eve later in the morning. look out the window, i see the beautiful orangy blue sky with birds flying, at least something better.

JEALOUSY REALLY BURNS!

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 7:01 AM


Saturday, February 18, 2006

over sensitive? jealousy? more behind every action? more behind every look?
firstly it was words that stab. now its the looks that breaks me and the actions that kills me.
you don't know, you just don't. will you notice? will you understand? its difficult for me t tell you. it really is. sigh, how saddening can it go?

oh crap. another irritant. what on earth is wrong with that girl. firstly, she was known t be my replica. but i guess, she loves being it cause she doesn't give a shait (as seen) . mann, where has her sense of originality ran to? trendy wanker still. when will this stop, it's quite irriating having a replica. for christ sake, someone please knock some sense into her. she really needs t be original, not totally but at least 90%. no big shait if she's good in her studies. actually, it's not only her. some others too BUT forget it, they know it themselves. thats for sure.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 2:38 AM


Friday, February 17, 2006

how can i ever be nice t a prick who has big ego? seriously, i can never swallow the fucked up side of you. if i'm such an eye sore t you, why don't you just fucking tell me in my face. your face and character matches perfectly, totally gross and thick skin. i so feel like telling you right in your face how much i hate you but then again, you won't give a shait and you'll think whatever you've done so far are right. so why waste my breath talking t you or bother to reply you each time you talk t me. all my friends thinks your nice but they don't know the fucking ego you have in you thats making me hate you even more each time we talk. i wish i could just sew your fucking mouth cause its never possible asking you t try t be in my shoes. this time, i really give up. i'm breaking down. nothing you do will ever make you close t a perfect father.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 4:37 AM


Wednesday, February 15, 2006

my most enjoyable and memorable valentines day spent with baby. he really took the effort and time t make this valentine's day a smooth one. thanks darls, am really very honoured. ((; loves.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 4:57 AM


Tuesday, February 14, 2006

FUCK OFF.
i hope your choke on every fucking word that you said when you talk.
GO LICK YOUR SHAIT.
fuck your ego and fuck you
if you think you are so fucking good then you are so fucking wrong asshole.

pissed with you mf.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 3:09 AM


Saturday, February 11, 2006

im tired of seeing this happen.
you don't understand.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 4:21 AM


Friday, February 10, 2006

i'm tired, not physically but emotionally. i try t be happy and paste a smile on my face. my mind is filled with many unwanted problems. one of it is my results which will be released tmr. i'm sure i'm gonna do badly but i hope it isn't that bad.

there is this strong feeling in me that made me afraid of you somehow, am puzzled. some things are better left unsaid. security level is low. somehow, bottling up is better.

what lies behind my smile
what my tears contain
i'll never let go of this love.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 3:37 AM


Wednesday, February 08, 2006

FINALLY!
it wasn't virus which made me can type properly these few days, it was the damn keyboard. made me so frustrated and irritated while using the com these few days.

hope baby will feel better tmr.
i wanna meet him );
plainly one reason, i miss him.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 11:37 PM


Tuesday, February 07, 2006

spell it, F-A-I-T-H-F-U-L. thats one of the major factor one needs t have, when in a relationship.

my eye's itching so badly that i feel like soaking it in a tub of optrex, i think its spelt that way. girls hate it when its the time of the month, stomach cramps and pms-ing. results are going t be released on the 10th which is saddly this friday. sgp is gonna be flooded with my tears mixed with some others too.

MY COM IS STILL INFECTED WITH VIRUS.
MAJOR HELP IS NEEDED
PLEASE HELP, ANYONE?

baby, you were missed.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 2:18 AM


Monday, February 06, 2006

CANDICE HATES LIARS T THE ULTIMATE MAX.

your fun's leading to my misery.
understand that, you gong!?
lies leading from one to another.
stop rubbing salt onto my scabs
scarring one is a major sin.

once bitten twice shy.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 4:37 AM


Sunday, February 05, 2006

my co+m is infected with dumb virus and i can't freaking type pro+perly as yo+u can see. the keybo+ard's system g+oing bo+nkers and thats irritating me large scale! dad think he kno+ws hell alo+t but what he kno+ws are just PEANUTS and he still wanna talk as if he kno+ws alot. he think if he fucking scans it, it'll be do+ne already. when actually its no+ even o+kay!

I NEED MAJOR HELP!

baby tried helping me, appreciated (((x thanks darls
but i still need HELP cause the dumb virus is still there.
soon i won't be able t type and i'll just kick the damn pc, curse and swear and be even mo+re unglam. all thanks t virus. no+w i have t try ways t get rid o+f it. it's eating into+ my SLEEPING TIME and leaving me with eye bags.

i love your hugs and kisses
more please darling?

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 4:48 AM


Friday, February 03, 2006

finally i stayed home, after many late night outs. have been feeling lethargic the whole damn day. television, phone chats, online, eat and more of every of that. the results will be release real soon, i've failed real badly which i'm aware of and kinda prepared. crap, that was a lie, im not prepared! then again whats done is done, regretting won't help. past days with baby were great and he came over t 'bainian'. not forgetting the day before i went over t his place t bainian. it wasn't planned. my outfit was the worst of all, BLACK. i think i gave an extremly bad impression, hope it ain't that bad either..
was watching i want a famous face on mtv just now and those ladies going for breast implants. omg, i was totally grossed out. thank god i wasn't eating otherwise i'll just throw up immediately. seeing the tubes going in the bod and blood squirting and gushing out, ewww pls. imagine all the pain one has t go through and maybe even the side effects. plastic surgeries seriously ain't good though they will make one so much better looking. even though everyone says real beauty is inside BUT like who doesn't wanna be better looking or going out with someone better looking if they have a way to, right? big deal if they are pretty but totally crap character, not much of a help with a pretty face. eight simples rules t date my teenage daughter and room raiders made me stuck t sofa, staring into the square box even longer.

losing interest
losing feelings
getting bored
getting tired?
i hope not
gaining interest
gaining feelings
getting more enthu
feel the beat of it?
i hope so
somethings are better left unsaid
you'll never be replaced darling.

some photos taken...

my most adorable niece aj. i made her do that ((;


granddad looks weird in the pic


cam whore


my future couz in law and my two cute lil couz mark and jonathan


anne has pretty big eyes with long eyelashes ))x


mark the future drummer


pretty jacq


we so love them

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 3:23 AM


Wednesday, February 01, 2006

why is it so difficult

this is the only time that i asked someone bout something countless times and the answer is still 'DONT WANT'. FRUSTRATED- ITS JUST ONCE THAT I ASK FOR.. i didn't want to ytd but i still did. what would mum think? friends here and wheres my boyfriend? tears of frustration, the first. you dont bother, you just dont...........

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 4:56 PM