CANDICE
CANDICE
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i'm extremly tired, irritated, impatient and emo at this very moment. granny's shoutings is irritating me very badly she's making my headache worst. other humans just keep affecting me in different ways. mood swing, maybe.. seriously, who can tolerate someone who's petty, occasionally showing attitude for god knows what reason, having mood swings, low tolerance, impatient and as stubborn as a mule? GRANNY IS IRRITATING ME XCORE, TOAD!
i've got my own limits.
i realise something, something...
one issue after another, i start t wonder what am i t you. i guess you don't know how much pain each tear contains. this whole torturing week is killing me slowly. all i can say is that you mean alot t me and i've never ever given in so much t someone. if you love and care you wouldn't treat me this way.
stressful and tormented
my heart can't take it
my hands start t itch
black tears start rolling down
sick of crying
tired of trying
yes, i'm smiling
but inside i'm dying.
wearing it on my body
tell what words cannot explain.
i feel invisible t you
don't say you'll be there for me
when you know you wouldn't
that's just total bullocks!
words without action
quit acting like you will
everyone stop lying
cause it's so hollow and fragile
little issues and people can affect you and us that much
without me, you still be as jovial as ever
laugh at my foolishness and stupidity, go ahead
why not try t put yourself into my shoes
taste jealousy
feel the pain of the heartaches
and hear the heartbreaks
feel the way the tears roll down the cheeks
feel how i felt
you give me an insecure feeling
with or without me
it won't change a single bit at all.
i've fallen into a shait hole
unable t get up without your help
how i wish a moving vehicle
just hit into me and i'll be out of this world
i don't mind dying ugly now.
the tears just keeps rolling
while i'm thinking of what happen.
beg for love?
i'll move, when a pretty address comes crashing my mind
sometimes its invisible t you
that your words and actions
actually contains acid razor sharp bullets
and i got shot silently
seems like i'm the only one that's such a pain in your ass
seems like i'm the only one that can irritate you so much
& i never, i never thought i could be the one.
all dressed up, thinking of going over
but you said another day
well, alright i shall find my own plans
i'm frigging exhausted and my internet is cranky, what a time. came back from liquid, it was yig's birthday. the music seems better now compared t the time when i last stepped in there. oh wells, over all i had fun except for a min or two. baby was exceptionally super duper extremely sweet t the max xcore, even sweeter than caramel coated candies. zomg, he got me drown in his love. i truely madly deeply love him like for all time pls. ti amo baby (;
I cannot find a way to describe it
It's there inside, all I do is hide
I wish that it would just go away
What would you do, you do, if you knew
What would you do
All the pain I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said
Back and forth inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable, come and take me away
I feel like I am all alone
All by myself I need to get around this
My words are cold, I don't want them to hurt you
If I show you, I don't think you'd understand
Cause no one understands
Take me away
Break me away
Take me away
Take me away
sitting on my bed, listening t songs on the radio
feeling so emo and awake
many horrible situations and fearful events
all captured,
making round abouts in my head
tears just rolled down
never ever will i share what's mine
my greatest fear is t lose him.
JEALOUSY KILLS alright!
he might see somethings as an not important issue but it matters t me
i don't share
he doesn't bother
cause i know he doesn't any longer
the stupid song ain't moving, so frustrating. i met up with sher and eve today, their ears suffered and they tolerated my continous whinning. thanks both. eve is always making me jealous, sad case. it's her first day in school, i'm so happy for her and myself. ha, she can be my make-up artist ((; she said she'll make up for me, not the basics obviously. i've got t sleep soon, i've got to wake up early tmr morning t meet sherlyn aw and head down town.
because...
i know he doesn't
i know how he avoids
i know he no longer
i can't feel it
i hear no more
it's painful
of him
i fake
i pretend
TELL ME WHY
cause it was unconditional,
that left me feeling this way.
celebrated jaslin's birthday yesterday. met hg, eve, lia, jas and her bf for dinner at fish&co at glasshouse. ate the same thing as usual cause that's like the smallest portion among the main course but i still couldn't finish it. jaslin's bf has a huge appetite. wanted t go swensen but changed our minds and we headed t indochine's nude instead. can't imagine i walked from dhoby ghaut all the way t wisma, that's like 2 mrt stops! that sounds quite bimbo but seriously, i can't imagine. there was only one table occupied, prolly cause it was still early. ben, jeff&his friend came. we just chill and be cam whores. was accompanied and sent t cali's starbucks t meet up with sher, mel, ting and sel. i was gonna catch a movie with baby and ong so we all left t cine. left them and went t meet baby. the show was fantastic but we didnt have the good seats and it made my neck ache. it was like some bumming day, bummed into jade, sarah, ebel, prahlad, gwen, amelia's ex, helly, baojun and amanda. i just found out that norris knows lia's ex, small world.
that ride cheered me up (x thanks
i know what you did last summer
let me put a stop t all the lies
what she said in that message was so true
we both knew that nothing could help this situation
sometimes i just wonder,
why should i just pretend...
human mentality ;
if you don't give a shait about me, why should i give a shait about you
when one treats their partner extremly good, the other will take things for granted and not cherish nor appreaciate
get numb and tired after all the pain suffered
they will not cherish what they have till its gone
what jas and her bf commented did make sense, infact very logical. they contributed and branched out many links to our 'project A'. guess now eve and i can see a better and clearer picture of it. although i hope what her bf said was not what it is. haha.
anyhow, am gonna work for now and continue with my studies.
feels like its one sided
feels like a nobody
feels like its broken & bleeding
feels more painful than anything
feels like i'm falling deeper in you
what's left of me is what i pretend t be
Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done
Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.