Monday, July 31, 2006

do what you want others t do t you, that simple principle. i wasn't a single fuck bit guilty, no no not even a single bit. look who is guilty conscious now uh. couldn't care less actually i do but i'm jus trying not to.
so yes, i've been spending alot this two weeks. i'm re-dying my hair YAY. breko's ice lemon tea taste funny today. i feel like a fatty, had soup, steak, bread, alil cake, ice lemon tea and beans for branch. sashimi rice, vege and miso soup for dinner. chief salad and ice lemon tea for supper.
oh oh oh i saw two cats making out today, was so amazed. continiously four sats are birthday celebrations. so so busy.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 1:44 AM


Sunday, July 30, 2006

sometimes i get too worn out when i'm just the one trying t make things go the right way, you just don't see the effort i've put in. when i start t wonder, the imaginations runs way too wild. there's too much i fear. excessive thinking, i'm dying. quick come save me from this misery

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 4:19 AM


Friday, July 28, 2006

this week is a super busy week. i didn't attend the snag competition today suppose t go for an audition tmr but i've got lunch and so i won't be going another audition with miss aw again on saturday which we are still pending if we should go. i've got t wake up early tmr and so i'll have t sleep soon. i might be meeting aw tmr, aha. goodnight world, i'll update tmr (;

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 1:22 AM


Thursday, July 27, 2006

did major retail therapy with miss aw yesterday, wasn't sucessful though cause we did not manage t sweep through the whole orchard. wasted 3 precious hours at bugis, didn't really get much. town is still the ultimate choice for everyone t do their shopping. from 2 t 10.30 non-stop. we didn't even sit except during our train ride and trying on shoes and we skipped dinner. my hands were so tired, i wish i had someone there t help me take my stuff. aha, i wish. saw this pretty gucci hangbag and i fell in love with it. i want a gucci wallet or handbag for my 18th birthday (; aha, time please fly! surprisingly baby came over t my place last night and we went for supper. (((; oh man, i love that boy.

i dragged myself out of bed t get mom's birthday present cause she would be fetching me t scotts. suppose t meet smelly for gym later but the both of us can't make it. so frigging tired and i'll prolly have t wake up early tmr so, i need my time and rest. at the same time, am feeling guilty cause i feel like a charsiew with thick layer of fats surrounding. sicktard la! zomg, i better head t the gym soon.

SMELLY, WE MUST GO GYM-ING SOON AND MORE MORE MORE VEGETABLES FOR YOU, LESS THAN 10 STALKS WILL NEVER DO!

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 2:11 PM


Wednesday, July 26, 2006

i don't see a reason why i should when you don't
everything seems nothing t you
everything related seems so fake t me
i tried t please, i tried my best
the step to 'better' seems so unreachable
maybe you never loved
i didn't expect you t even forget that
so much for trying my utmost best
i'm fading t black
you broke my fucking heart
now, i start t think

if you felt my heart, you'll realise.....
you can't see the broken smile, you only see the happy side
cause its not as if you'll give a damn, that makes me worst
i'm dying inside, please make me alive
my love for you was deep that's made me feel this way

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 2:02 AM


Monday, July 24, 2006

mom's back, i won't be that lonely at home when the sunsets anymore.

meet sher, sel, jacq in town for awhile on fri, went t exchange my top and walk around. accompanied sherlyn visit her 'somebody'. aha. actually i was disturbing her la but i know she wants t see that 'somebody' too. then left t baby's, he fetched me from the mrt then went for lousy car wash at some petrol kiosk. supper at east coast was average, the stingray and kangkong weren't that nice. i still love newtons sambal stingray and kangkong not forgetting fried oyster woohoo spasm. baby drove and i almost died. aha i was exaggerating, something happened after pumping petrol. the sharp screeching sound leaving ong, haider in shock and passer-bys to turn and look. so it was like his car, haider's bike then ong's car. they'll be in danger if anything happened, thank god nothing happened. mann, i myself got a shock. cross my fingers and hope he'll be a safe on the road.

watched nacho libre on sat. i strongly encourage you people t watch, you can roflyao. ong sent us t baby's place and went home t park his car. so he drove t pick them up then t simpang bedok for teh bing and then went off t his friends place. the journey was extremly long and i was having a headache which made me feel so lethargic. on the way, something, something again, something mann.

my left eye was swollen in the morning and was f.red and painful. spent sunday with my lovely.

it's time t do some accessories shopping with miss aw. i've not met her for a long time and i realize that. AW, if you're seeing this sorry lets go shop soon promise (; although i know this sounds so last week. sorry luh, i know you ain't petty right!
it's time t go spend time with mom. for christ sake shut up dad your singing is terriblely horrible. holycow, i need somethings, i really need it but it's kinda out of my reach, damnit.

you are my everything,
my everything is you dearest.
i fear something suddenly,
tell me everything is going to be alright.
it's scaring the shit out of me, i'm freaking out.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 2:02 AM


Friday, July 21, 2006

i've done enough
what do you know about
treating someone good
what do you know about
treating someone like a dirt
i bet you know it all but
you just don't know how the opposite feels.
wow, such an interesting thing
which i'm least interested in

anyway, went town with my sister t shop yesterday. it's like once in a blue moon that we go out together, so yea. was quite fun though just that her speed of walking was slower and she's always wondering off and i've t call her. walked like half of orchard, lido to heeren. coincidentally saw eve and jamie.. sis left for movie and i went shopping on my own, it's better just that you don't have any one t give you opinions on how are the things you eyed on. anyway, i didn't go down t collect the snag's contestants package. big boys toys just called la but i turned them down. i think i'm just lack of confidence. oh wells, shit me.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 4:50 PM


Thursday, July 20, 2006

i fell in love with things at few sights );
that's not good at all, now i can't stop thinking bout it.
now i feel so guilty for missing a person
cause i miss the person for a dumb reason.
mann, i hate this feeling

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 2:14 AM


Wednesday, July 19, 2006

two words t describe how was life today, "BORING" and "DISAPPOINTED". i was so bored that i started applying eyeliner on my eyelid, wasn't normal ones though. i tried t occupy myself with stuff but i still could feel the boring-ness. i miss mommy although she just left 12 hours ago, i miss crapping with her and her entertainment when i'm bored. now i have t survive 5 days without her exsistence, means life will be boring at home.
on a lighter note, baby's exsistence today made me feel better for awhile.

i missed you a whole lot
my head is battling with my heart
i won't expect much
bottling up and pretend
more bottling, less problems
i'm so worned out, please heal me.
you've got my only tub of my love darls (:

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 3:54 AM


Tuesday, July 18, 2006

i'm feeling super irritated today, sorry
i will and must be fine tmr.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 2:15 AM


Monday, July 17, 2006

feeling uber hyper, prolly cause i'm feeling happy and it's not an everyday thing that i'll feel happy. i hope this happiness will last long boy.
so yes, friday and sunday were great and sat wasn't as fun as expected but i still met up with regi and the rest. i'm starting t like trance overnight. all girls should own many pretty dresses. i'm looking through online shopping webs given by kerri ((;
sis called from bangkok and said she lost her cell, goodness it's only around 7 months old. mom and dad won't be in town this week. i'll miss them dearly, honest! haha yeah right. or maybe i really would.
zomg check this webby, it's f.funny.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=js0vOgjBfD8&mode=related&search=

this range is damn lovely, i wanna own them.



looks like the range one above

call this unique

you've gotta love this

steamy



so paris hilton



classic hot


SO MANY PICTURES, alright bye world.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 1:38 AM


Friday, July 14, 2006

i need the good luck mann. honestly, i need the luck. somehow i just got a bad feeling. oh mann. im damn scared. sigh..... i thought about it and i realise that it didn't seem good at all, not even a lil. wish me all the good luck world, i really need it.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 4:25 AM


Thursday, July 13, 2006

it's three fucking twenty-seven in the morning and i still can't fall asleep cause i'm so afraid about tmr. john gave me high hopes and i hope tmr i would be happy and not sad. i hope whatever i get won't be negative or some shait stuff. i'm so afraid and that's making me chicken out but for the sake of myself i've got t face it. i honestly hate times like these, please tell me that everything will be alright. i can't afford any shait ass things like that. wish me good luck and pray that i'll be happy. i'm so afraid resulting my hands t turn cold. why do i always have t be the one facing this instead of the other party. im so so so fucking scared! i hope i'll be telling them good news. i've got t wait for at least 12 fucking hours. sorry for the overdosage of vulgarities used but it was inevitable.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 3:27 AM


Wednesday, July 12, 2006

i need to go on a shopping spree, it's time the right time. i'll be starting school next month and i'm sure i'll have t crack my head and think what t wear. guys just dress in tees, tanks, berms, jeans, their footwear and their extremly precious hair that they've got t style or maybe just a cap will do. i used t think hate wearing school uniforms and now i guess its better at least i need not think what t wear the next day. on the other hand, i think wearing our own outfit's better. HAHA contridiction.

so weird, just so weird
cheater in disguise.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 3:25 AM


Tuesday, July 11, 2006

the newly implemented law that only 20% ( a really tiny area ) allowed for smoking is such a bad idea, extremly bad. now everyone is eyeing on the smoking seats at their chill out spots. life was so much easier when people could just practically smoke anywhere outdoors. even though the prices of the cigs increase, it won't stop people from buying them. instead they're making people rather get illegal cigs. banning cigs will just solve the whole damn problem. increasing of cab fare, honestly what on earth is wrong with these people, trying t increase almost everything making people wanting t migrate ( commented by eve ) which i totally agree. oh wells, this is life and this is the world.
i finally sent my phone for repair cause i'll die soon if i kept using it the spoilt way. bye t all my text, bye t all my photographs, bye t all the stuff in my phone i'll miss you dearly, i swear.
these feelings i store in my heart are getting me sick and tired nowadays. sometimes i feel empty. i want to be a good exception. i like the way you talk t me at times. i hate t say this but, i really do hate the times when all the discriminating words just fall out from your mouth be it kidding or not. sometimes it may not be the right time t kid or maybe you just do it too often, that make someone think if you're just kidding or whatever. so i'll take 90% of your discriminating words as though you are kidding. sometimes it just ain't easy t swallow those words. if this is your way of de-stressing yourself, i'll undearstand. i'll rather be the one that's getting this than someone else. hope things are still fine and we're on the path that's going t get us further and better in our relationship. hopefully things are good. baby, i loved you and i'll always. you've got my heart hottie (:

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 2:27 AM


Saturday, July 08, 2006

it's so early and i manage t drag myself out of my bed. my brain feels so lagged it goes the same for my bod, i feel dead. i had my own fun and dark place yesterday. i made a smart choice not t stay at home and wait, i would have been mentally dead by then.

cause you know what,
it never lasted more than two freaking damn weeks.
you don't know what it's like t fall into a shait hole
oh yes, try it, you'll taste instant death
cool huh?

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 10:10 AM


Friday, July 07, 2006

i understand and i accept
but don't cross the line
everyone has their limit
your discriminating words
actually, i sense something bad
i hope my senses are wrong, i hope.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 12:37 AM


Wednesday, July 05, 2006

sweet startings and bitter endings?
bitter startings and sweet endings?
mann oh mann.
taken forgranted?

yeahh baby soccer's starting!

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 2:53 AM


Tuesday, July 04, 2006

an accomplishment of the first piority, I FEEEL GOOD BOY! slept for less than 4 hours, that's pretty pathetic resulting t eye bags. am having a super bad hair day, it looked as if i just came back from some riot. went baby's in the morning, cabbed with him all the way t sim. he accompanied me while waiting for miss aw. smelly was in sim too so i met smelly and he went t school ( something occured leaving me blur for a split second ).

here's the complication : sel and were meeting mel for lunch, sher and i were meeting for lunch and i thought sel, sher, mel and i were going t have lunch together. so yea, accompanied sel and mel cause she had t go back for lecture again. wanted t lunch with sher at sakae sushi but we ended up eating at sim's canteen and the food that sher and i ate sucked quite badly, it's the weird after taste that we had. mel left half way and we left after awhile. it's a super sunny day, great day t get the tan. we were extremly lazy so sel, sher and i shared cab cause he was gg t gwc. that's about it.

i've got nothing better t do that's why i'm blogging what happen in my life this whole morn cum half afternoon. i've got t get my hair layered cause the top's too heavy. oh, i browsing through my itunes and i realise my highest play count was howie day's collide. WOW, i'm amazed. fuck, i'm just bored la. WOO, soccer tonight!

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 4:01 PM

i'm tired of thinking bout the things that are driving me crazy.
how i wish we could just exchange places


i just planned something, yea something.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 2:12 AM


Sunday, July 02, 2006

went indochine cause it was alex birthday. shoutings due t the soccer match and the silly games they played. zomg, totally fanfuckingtastic! not only drinking but finishing the creamy tiramisu cake and licking it clean.
i had a weird dream, a really weird dream. t think i could dream of such weird stuff. and yes, i wanna change my blog add its oh-so boring. no idea why i chose it either.

so random.
i'm off

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 6:26 PM