Thursday, August 31, 2006

so what if i was occupied the whole damn day
it's just a 0.0001percent difference

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 12:46 AM


Tuesday, August 29, 2006

so friday i was a f.moron.
sat i was an idiot.
sunday wasn't any better
f.monday could just kill me instantly
sigh, i feel so neglected. it's killing me inside. i honestly have no idea the amount of love in you. i almost had fatal death of bordem yesterday.so yes, deep down i was happy that i recieved a morning call today and i was not happy bout something else. but at least, you didn't lie (: & ):
i was half an hour late for school today cause i shut my eyes after hanging up, i still need my 10 hours of daily rest. my dark eye rings and eye bags are out, not much of a difference from a panda. was the last lesson for communication skills today and i think i'm gonna fail it cause it's like super boring.

BYE NEGLECTION, HI LOVE. (i'm waiting&hoping)

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 10:45 PM


Saturday, August 26, 2006

honestly, how many nights haven't we talk on the phone. i bet you don't even notice it, cause you've been out enjoying yourself t the max with your bud. well, understandable as your exams just ended. you neglecting me during your exams is understandable but what, exams are over and i don't even get t talk t you at night. skipped butter factory cause maine and i will be the only two females, leaving me with a boring night besides meeting aw for awhile.

thought it was worth not going as you said you were going home early, it made me happy (but it didn't last long) cause you stayed out late for the past don't know how many days or weeks. with a tinge of hope that i'll get t talk t you before i sleep. waited like a MORON for your call but all i received was just a short message. i had school the next day, you knew but chose t be ignorant.

waiting is a torturing process, you don't know that for sure. know why i didn't call, cause i know you don't like t talk t me when you're with your friends, for god knows what reason. you've never called me for the past few days when you were out with your friends, that's supporting evidence that you don't like t talk t me when you're out with your friends.

so what, i waited like hell for your call and your reply at the same time was being understanding enough not t call you cause you're out with your friends and this is what i get from you. logically speaking, shouldn't i be the unhappy human instead of you. i'm upset but trying t be happy, can't you see. i'm dying inside, why aren't you saving me? have you ever spare a thought for me?

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 2:20 PM


Monday, August 21, 2006

i was feeling bad but like not anymore
cause you know what,
you don't give a damn bout my feelings
cause you just shoot your bullet words
you don't care bout the outcome
you don't make sacrifices for me
like how you do for the others
for all my love i devote

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 12:23 AM


Saturday, August 19, 2006

THREE WORDS ;
PURE-FUN, DARING & WILD
oh i think i like it
no, i love it xcore!
bring it on babeh, am for it.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 10:02 AM


Friday, August 18, 2006

those thoughts ran way too wild
i'm slipping.
but hey unloving, you don't know anything

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 1:41 AM


Thursday, August 17, 2006

others ain't like that
it's like a world of difference
well, what you know
all the sacrifices made
still the heart is in the trashbin
chucked aside
will be cleared only when the collector's happy
otherwise it'll be opened only t throw more trash
fuckgetit if it doesn't make sense t you.
don't bother reading in between
hey unloving, i will love you.
hey unfaithful, i will teach you.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 12:06 AM


Tuesday, August 15, 2006

school's no fun as yet but i got t know more classmates and their names. let me state, szemin, eugenia, tingting, luks, amy, bernard, albert and kane. excuse my spelling please. anyway, got a ride home, thanks. you hardly see me puntual for anything but i have been for school cause i don't wanna walk in half way, the whole class would be like looking, that's extremly paiseh. school's a bore, i need an entertainer. oh yes, this kkb caught me for my attire ytd and it's so f.obvious tht i wasn't the only one who was wearing that kinda of attire. dumb mofo.

Cheater and Cheehong
they both start with a C
makes sense.

go on, push the blame
sfuby, understand.
logically speaking,
ydfstgad.
itygab, actions talks.
xO

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 8:53 PM


Sunday, August 13, 2006

cause you know what?
i rem-ed whatever you said
directly into my damn ear.

no, it's not like that
no, it isn't
i wish i cld be you, i so wish i was you

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 5:58 PM


Saturday, August 12, 2006

words just stays as words
actions do the talking
the heart speaks

i question myself
why should i do nice stuff
cheer myself up
pretend i'm happy
i might not be the only one.

this is stupid,
you said i'm 'xxxcxxx', BULLS!
and it's so f.obvious when i compare THAT PARTICULAR THING

loose cannon
don't make me blog about you biatch.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 1:44 AM


Thursday, August 10, 2006

forced myself t wake up early this morn and headed down t lido's isetan supermart t get the sushi ingredients. made the sushi and baked cookies but i kinda screwed it up all thanks t the cake mixer which decided t break down on me today, so it didn't turn out as well as the one's i baked previously.
mom sent me t baby's place, so nice yea. aha, i love her xcore. waited for his sis t come back and then went for dinner with his fam at east coast followed by dessert at haagen daz. i so wanted t try the chocolate fondue but i haven't got a chance to. his sister decided t order that and we shared. it's pretty nice (; i think it taste better than the chocolate fountains at hotel cafes but he thinks otherwise. his sister is sucha cheerful person, ha cute.

that king just make me melt -mwaks

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 1:33 AM


Tuesday, August 08, 2006

i had a horrible dream, horrible totally. freaked out and was f.scared when i got up. whats the point of saying it, i'll rather shut up. HAVE FUN THEN.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 2:58 PM

first day of school is so gay. when i reach ruwen and jj were still on their way so i went t find my class first. aha, that was easy but of course with the help before hand. the class is pretty small and the lecturer's hot in his 50s, as if. he ends 80% of his sentences with an "ah" behind which makes it irritating. he's like hypnotising me with his "ah".
so during break went t smoke with jj, gerlynn and two of their friends. introducing me the smoking corner and the security guards who will chase us and then crashed my class for like 20mins. so i met like 3 new friends in my class. time passed real fast, 3hrs ((;
went kino t hunt for an organiser but there were not nice ones in sight, so i bought a pretty notebook instead. went t zara, eyed on 2 tops. then miss aw came. walked arnd and damn it i fell in love with this puma shoes, steamy sial. went wisma for lunch and got my lipgloss and headed home cause we were f.tired.
so yes overall, school is gay but can be fun (;

be less evil and mean
i'll treat you like a king
actually i am already
so no big diff
what good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 1:22 AM


Saturday, August 05, 2006

quit faking mr good. aha BULLOCKS.
enough said, its really enough.
words are f.nothing.
actions do the talking.
i believe what i am seeing and what i saw.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 9:54 PM

screw your attitude and the treatment.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 4:06 PM


Friday, August 04, 2006

your bullet words are getting more acidic, i don't just get shot through but burn at the same time. ironically, you cared. wasn't it abit too late but then again better late then never. i told myself t stay strong, it's no point feeling so miserable when the other party doesn't give two shaits. you continued your shooting game and it hit me down hard. i couldn't take those shaits, thankfully you did care. i tried t be perfect, did you? let actions do the talking.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 2:24 AM


Thursday, August 03, 2006

once you lie, part of the trust that was build would be gone. think twice, you better not lie. sometimes what seen and keeping quiet is the best. cause it won't be of much help instead i'll be going through hell, whats the point? i'd rather keep it t myself knowing what has been done. not everything needs t be voiced out...

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 1:42 AM


Wednesday, August 02, 2006

i'll be starting school on monday after 8 months of freedom i'm going t get tied down by school again. aha, as if i can be tied down by school. goodness, i'm freaking out bout whats going t happen on monday. going t a school knowing only few friends and i'm pretty sure i won't know anyone from my class. goodness, i wonder how how how! hope there will be friendly friendly humans (; this month is such a busy busy month, so many birthdays this month.

missed you baby love.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 2:59 PM


Tuesday, August 01, 2006

honestly, pointing a middle finger was not the extend i felt like giving a tight slap at that very moment. goodness, how idiotic can one go? can't think at her age, dumb or what f.dumb. i'm like boiling. fuckgetit.

i need no words,
actions are enough t do the talking.
i say everything
with a reason behind it.
not plain bullocks dude

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 1:54 AM