Wednesday, February 28, 2007

i lost the drive i found
fool myself time and time again
to make myself believe
its lying on my mind
so unexpected, really disappointed
feel so cheated
i pretend just t hide
cause i know you won't give a two shaits
ilovedyou
itriedmybestindoingeverythingforyou
honestlyhitmedownrealhard.
ithoughtyouweredifferentfromtherest.
lyingonthebednothingbuttearsandpain
sigh.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 2:29 PM


Tuesday, February 27, 2007

great in acting, great at words
unexpected piercing
lost of words
just a continous flow of tears
unable to hide nor pretend
feel the agonising pain from the rock bottom.

why didn't you just take my life away.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 2:44 AM


Thursday, February 22, 2007

i haven't been updating for awhile. oh wells, valentines day was great followed by the lunar new year. first time in these few years that i stayed home on an eve, that was ultimate boring. relatives came over for reunion dinner, we had steamboat. somehow, i didn't eat alot.

first day i started off with godgrandmom's, followed by granddad's. had lunch at granddad's. totally love the lotus root soup and the damn prawn head dropped on my dress. thank god the stain wasn't that obvious so yea, it was pretty alright. oh and someone who was a generation before me had totally no f.brains, like whatthefuck is wrong with that toad. continued t grandmom's hse, had my all time favorite soup. the one with fishballs, mushrooms, fish maw, sea cucumber, pig stomach and all inside. gambled and i lost abit but my aunt who was the banker spilt the money that she won from us and gave us back so i ended up winning alil. haha. dinner was sponsored by uncle from his restaurant. cam whore with my cousins and all then we continued gambling. baby came over, we won money ((: after they stop gambling, i went off with baby first.

second day all my relatives came over t my place. woke up at like 12 and my aunt was here there. mom, aunt and my maid were busy preparing the food. got myself ready and helped out. not long after the crowd came and of course the most adorable AJ came, she's the ultimate sweetie pie. sis friends came over followed by baby, ong, eve and vince. we all gambled and dad was the banker. i lost quite abit, damnit. went over t eve's hse after dinner then t station kitchen.

third day i went over t baby's first together with ong, eve and vince. had lunch then went over t ong's. his mother is one friendly and funny mommy, his girlfriend came over. had shepherds pie, the potato's the x.core! went back t baby's place cause his relatives were coming over. his mom cooked alot and i mean ALOT. oh, she cooked the favorite soup too! went over t yig's new place after. his place was like some mtv cribs house, bigger then his old house. baby went over t my place after. watch jackass2 and my parents bought supper back for us.

i've got exams tmr, wish me a whole tub of luck i really need it.

attitudes and shouting.
is it a need or a must eh?

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 3:09 PM


Monday, February 12, 2007

these two weeks were like absolute shopping, food and exercising. can't believe the horrendous amount i spent in 6 days to be exact. thanks t mommy cause she bought stuffs for me and went shopping with my friends and i. i met miss aw three times this week, it has been a while since we saw each other soooo many times in a week. i'm gonna meet sher and mel for manipedi tmr ((: meeting jas later on for more shopping, hopefully nothing's attractive due t the over spending.
somehow i miss the martells, handgames and the usual company. alrighto, the contractor's here i'm gonna shower.

i don't see nor feel myself there
i'm feel i'm trying t dig my place
somehow, i don't feel...........

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 1:41 PM


Wednesday, February 07, 2007

whatthefuckingasshole.
sweet, loving, caring, faithful etc.
stupidity, fuck that bullshait.
sigh
sigh
sigh
i don't know what t say.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 1:37 PM


Sunday, February 04, 2007

this would be a long post cause i'm pretty much free now (:

yesterday was like shopping for baby day, i only got myself a top. went vivo with nia cause my actual plan was t get doughnuts and she wanted t get her bedsheets. tangs was first, saw jaslin working. nia got her shu uemura eye lash curler and i bought baby lab series and boxers. wanted t get a fred perry for him but there was no size and the rest of the colors weren't our taste so i bought him gap instead.

OH, this was really embarrasing alright. nia and i went into everyshop and the sensors started beeping. like wtf, i thought it was mine at first till we went into topshop and realise it was actually miss nia's but they couldn't care less after checking. until we went into forever21 the sales lady was kind enough t tell nia the sensor was inside her shu uemura box. all thanks t the tangs staff :/

my "long-time-no-see" bud came, jas came and walked around till her break ended. nia and i were dead tired. sat and waited for jaslin t end work. went t collect my dozen of doughnuts and they still made me wait after waiting for one damn hour. they even took their own sweet time, HELLO where is your sense of urgency? slow sial. nia left and jaslin's nice parents sent me t amara cause she was gonna spring leaf something. i was still early so i went to the korean shop opposite bought some food t try out. settled for a drink while waiting cause the shopping bags were awfully heavy! they left marks on my arm.

supper was fermented beancurd, pig intestines and chicken claws. the pig intestines were really sinful but delicious (; i hope i manage t burn some fats during the car wash after. HAHA

went geylang today for frog leg porridge and fried orgasmic oysters, apparently i love the porridge compared t the frog leg. its those sticky porridge which can cause you indigestion, but worth the indigestion (: starsbucks t meet alex, eve, vince and ong then chinatown t check it out. we seemed a little foreign t the place. the floors were so dirty, covered with all the sweet wrappers and whatsoever. then adams and ham's places after. i've got cravings for eggs today. he cooked for me nice eggs which tasted like carrot cake, thanks darls.

they were painful in the morning.
shadows bleeding through the light.

someone's out t rip like a wannabe, yes i'm totally disgusted yet honored. someone just had t poke the f.nose into other human's biz. can't believe i'm blogging bout such matters when i'm turning nineteen this year. honestly, this will be the last bout that fugly but that human deserves it.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 3:03 AM


Friday, February 02, 2007

i'm dead tired but i just can't sleep,
it's not that i don't want to.
for god knows what reason,
i'm feeling not here nor there
and i've got a feel of instability.
why are you like that?

i lie on the bed in...
you're excavating my heart.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 2:50 AM


Thursday, February 01, 2007

finally, all the projects are done.

i feel so fucked, i feel so stupid.
why?

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 11:19 PM

i'm worn out from the projects, i hear the due dates calling my name. HELLO friday, pls come quick. i've lost my sleep, fun, telev and shopping. Been very annoyed, irritated and of course angry. thanks t those humans. oh and i'm actually suppose t be doing my project now but i'm like x.tired and my mood's not in the right category.

more understanding, loving and caring,
then i ask myself why are you like that.
its all kept inside me,
they'll come out when you're asleep
and back in only when you are awake.
i tried maybe i did not put in enough effort
or did i try too hard.
sigh...
i'm gonna love you anyway.

& BABY I NEED YOUR LOVIN' ; 1:44 AM